I just want to be done, so bad but I’m too cowardly to take my own life. I’m all talk but hoping I can get to the point where I can do it. People say it’s the easy way out don’t understand the contemplation & the pain when you take your life lol the world acts like they’re doing you a favor when in reality they’re selfish & insensitive. Not all of us want to be here, I never wanted to exist. I grew up learning about Christianity and the thought of having to praise an invisible man just to make it to a safe place after death is fuckin ridiculous. Religion is a joke and it’s for control. I can’t swim so if I jumped into a lake its game over for me. But I think drowning might be excruciatingly painful so idk what to do besides stay trapped on earth feeling alone. I hate people so much.