I want to try and leave again. I don't want to do this anymore, I am a child putting on big girl shoes, pretending to be an adult. I'm fucking tanking at this new job, my partner has so much mental health issues of their own that they're putting on hold for my bullshit..i have so little money right now I can't afford a bottle of water from the vending machine. I want to go. I WANT TO FUCKING GO. LET ME LEAVE.

PLEASE..just... everyone stop caring and let me disappear...I can't do this anymore for all of you. I haven't lived for myself ever... I'm suffering every day so y'all don't cry over me when I'm gone. Please just ONCE let me be selfish, ONCE don't demand the world of me and just let me go. I can't take this anymore.