Where I’m at I’m struggling financially and my family is so hateful towards one another, even my grandparents to one another and to their daughters, and them back to my grandparents. My mom hates my dad, my dad hates almost everyone but his mom, I just, idk. I am working on moving out but jobs are not good here. I’m not cut out for sociable jobs like retail but I’m also nervous about factory jobs and the potential harm they could cause. I like warehouse work pretty good but there’s not a lot of those available nearby that’s hiring.

Recently too I came down with Covid and I had to convince my boss to give me time off to recover, and in that time my grandparents are also hounding me about rent, which I’ll help out when I can afford it but trying to save my money while spending on food at where I work because I don’t officially get a meal break, plus gas and other bills, and currently on medicine so I can live and be somewhat comfortable, and trying to save up to move out the entire time, it’s so frustrating. And it’s not just them. I know everyone in the family wants help if I stay there, but they’re so picky or quick to ignore when I do help in a physical manner, and they just want money otherwise which I just don’t have.

I can’t even leave the state legally, I don’t officially have a car of my own, it’s my dad’s at the moment. Not that I could even afford to leave. I’m just stuck in this small town of hate and I can’t put up with it much longer, but I also don’t want to… you know. But I feel like I don’t have much choice anymore. Everything is so expensive, the world is full of hate and my home is no different, and idk what to do anymore.