Last time she harassed me blowing up my phone and when I finally answered she said some of the worst things imaginable to me. I did it in spit if her. I was drunk. I don’t even remember getting to the point of putting the belt around my neck. I woke up and the doorframe didn’t hold my weight when I went unconscious. I can kind remember the thud when my head hit the floor. That knocked me out. Between the lack of blood ti my head and the impact on the ground I was out. The belt was so tight around my neck that even though it wasn’t in a hole latched the buckle had pinched the skin on my neck and it was stuck tight. I slowly came to. I remember looking at the ceiling very dazed and confused as to why I couldn’t move or what was going on.

I could not move my whole body. My chest was rattling and I was drawing very shallow breaths that was very rhythmic but kinda an auto pilot my body just trying to draw in the very little air I could get. I could only see. I was stiff and I couldn’t move my arms ti get the belt from my neck. I remember commanding my arms ti get the belt off but I was frozen and could only barely see. It felt like for ever laying there. All of a sudden I felt this warmth on my stomach. Felt as if I was bleeding and I remember thinking that maybe i somehow had cut myself or something. I was very disoriented from the lack of blood ti my brain so there was lots of confusion. It wasn’t blood though, what had happened was I was relieving myself. I was pissing on myself uncontrollably bc at this point I’d lost all control of my body and still could nit move at this point. Honestly that warmth might have saved my life because it jolted my body a bit and I was then able to move my arms. I was only then able to take the belt off my neck