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somebody please help me I’m scared I don’t know what to do I have my knife and I know where my dad’s gun is. I want everything to stop but I’m svared and I don’t know what’s happening with me. I’m shaking and crying I cut my wrist and I’m bleeding a lot but nothing’s helping, I just want to feel better
I have, but it hasn’t really helped. And I don’t have the money to afford another
yes, I’m sorry I didn’t phrase it well. I feel like if I actively kill myself it’s admitting defeat and giving into my depression. Passively is a better way to put it though. Like if there was a cat coming towards me I wouldn’t move. Over the past year I’ve given up on myself. Gained a lot of weight, dropped out of school, started cutting my arms and legs, watched my best friend distance himself from me, and my family started to call me lazy and a failure. I don’t want to actively kill myself because I feel like that will prove them right, that I am a failure. I want a better life but I’m scared I can’t get there.
I made the post because I’m scared. I so badly want to go away but I don’t want to be the reason I die. If I shoot myaelf then I’ll feel weak.
I’ve given up on my future. I’m passively killing myself. Eating poorly, hardly going anywhere, not taking my meds anymore, not in school, I’ve just stopped and I’m hoping that one of them kills me soon. You’re right, I don’t know what the future may bring. But I also don’t want to be here to find out
please i can’t think of a reason to be alive
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I’m sorry if I caught you at a bad time
I wasn’t, I haven’t gotten any diagnosis besides severe depression and social anxiety. I haven’t made a friend since I was 2, so I really don’t have anyone to talk to