Finally disclosed to someone (GP/doctor) that I tried to kill myself when I was 8.

Struggling to process the emotions and feeling of being unwanted and questioning whether I was my (abusive) parents' child after how they treated me - which came back with the memory of when I was 8.

Unable to cope with going through all the abuse from my childhood, adolescence and twenties.

Triggered yesterday by a billboard which used the same phrase my dad used.

Had a horrible 1:1 supervision where my manager had a go at me and triggered memories of my dad going through my school reports and berating me whilst doing so - she knew about yesterday and my breakdowns this morning but it seemed as though she didn't care. I couldn't cope and left the 1:1.

Scared of losing my job over it.

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Really don't have any energy or reason left to carry on through tomorrow.