Hello!

I’ve been going through a lot of anxiety in recent months regarding my past actions and mistakes. I just can’t get over the guilt and sadness that it causes me and the ones around me and how they can impact my close ones in the future. I posted on this community before expecting that I would be dead today but things happened and now my plans are all over the place.

Then I started looking at suicide, it seems mental but ever since I started planning it I feel so much lighter. I just met one of my friends (I wish I could have seen them all). I was supposed to meet with another one but I went to my schools counseling department and they sent me home and now I will have to go to the hospital. Now I will know my problems but there will be no solution because now I will be more of a burden on others.

I still am going to take 500mg-1000mg of sleeping pills Benadryl, 5000mg of Acetaminophen, and 2000mg-3000mg of Ibuprofen. I just need someone to tell me if it will work and I will get the job done. I don’t want my plan to not work and then be more of a burden on my family, is there a way I can deny medical treatment in advance?

Please reach out and let me know if my method will be effective and somewhat painless? I don’t want to be here and I am content with that, everyone will be much better and happier without me.

I hope I did not waste anyone’s time. I hope I die a painless death in bed and wake up at a cabin all alone and with all the time to myself and watch over my family and friends.