Hello!

I’ve been going through a lot of anxiety in recent months regarding my past actions and mistakes. I just can’t get over the guilt and sadness that it causes me and the ones around me and how they can impact my close ones in the future.

Then I started looking at suicide, it seems mental but ever since I started planning it I feel so much lighter. I just met one of my friends (I wish I could have seen them all). I’m meeting another one tomorrow and then I’m going home and I plan on overdosing so my family can find be there.

I am going to take 500mg-1000mg of sleeping pills Benadryl, 5000mg of Acetaminophen, and 2000mg-3000mg of Ibuprofen. I just need someone to tell me if it will work and I will get the job done. I am writing all my letters so everyone gets some degree of closure.

Please reach out and let me know if my method will be effective and somewhat painless? I don’t want to be here and I am content with that, everyone will be much better and happier without me.

I hope I did not waste anyone’s time. I hope I die a painless death in bed and wake up at a cabin all alone and with all the time to myself and watch over my family and friends.