I’ve only been in love one time and it was with her, I did everything I thought you were supposed to do in a relationship I payed attention to every little thing she liked and bought her gifts based off that, I complimented her daily, told her how much she meant to me, and one day she just stopped loving me for no apparent reason, no argument, nothing, I didn’t wanna believe it we were supposed to hang out that day too she didn’t even do it in person, she saved my life too and I couldn’t ever repay that and I think by trying to I just pushed her away, I know i shouldn’t blame myself but I can’t help but feel like it’s my fault in some way, It’s been quite a while since we split and I just feel empty inside, I cry every night, every little thing reminds me of her, and the urge to end my life has returned, I feel like a coward but this is pain I’ve never felt before and I know she won’t save me this time, I bought her a promise ring and I haven’t even gotten it back yet idk what I’ll do with it but I know she doesn’t deserve to have it, I still love her which hurts, we both gave each other the only good Valentine’s Day either of us have had, I bought her a stuffed cow to remember that day and she still sleeps with it, I have nothing to remember that day but painful memories.