So yeah first time poster here (19m) and not sure how this works but here goes

My girlfriend broke up with me 2 days ago and its eating me up inside. She was the first person in my life to show me what actual love was and when I found out she was cheating on me it broke me entirely.

Since then I've expressed my want to kill myself because of this to both my dad and my bestfriend (I dont want to stress out my mom anymore than she already is) and my dad told me that I need to man the fuck up and it isn't that bad. My bestfriend told me that I shouldn't talk about things like that and if I dared to die he would kill me (the joke actually cheered me up a bit😂)

But still after she left I started to remember the stuff that happened to me that sucked, I stole my dads gun for my first attempt but chickened out as I didn't have the balls for it, then tried to slit my throat but didnt cut deep enough. Turns out she was right and I'm a loser.

I dont want to do this anymore