My Ex-Girlfriend gave me HIV a year ago, and it’s just too difficult to want to be here with a cure being far more complicated to solve than just a vaccine. The social stigma behind it is worse than anything I’ve ever known, and my dating life is beyond difficult once I break the news, and I don’t blame them for not wanting me after I tell them. I have to be extremely cautious when drinking because of my medication. She gave me HIV when I was 20 and this is supposed to be the prime of my life but it’s the opposite instead. I tried to work the pain off, I bought my own house, got my own cars, and don’t see anyway how I’d honestly struggle financially, but I feel like nothing but garbage because I can’t love someone and them love me back after knowing the fact, some people will argue there’s others out here but it’s easy to say that only if you live in a big city. It’s just painful everyday to feel like I don’t have any options for loving someone because of something that wasn’t even my fault. Where I live in my small community I am the only person with HIV and no one knows what I’m going through. I just don’t see the point going further when I can’t have a normal life, or love who I want to without having to focus on that one fact.