Hello, im 16M was soon to be 17 in April. I have Lost my adopted Dad due to a terminal illness. i Miss him dearly :( i have lost my best friend of 5 years due to us splitting, and my old friend of 7 years is now harassing me severely and cyber bullying me, making multiple accounts insulting me and spreading lies,, very bad ones such as “racist Nazi narcissist blah blah” obviously my true friends know none of that is true, but he is targeting those Sjw tik tok people (so sorry do not know what to call them..) to come after me, with NO context. i have informed the police multiple times, but now the police are saying that they cannot do anything because everytime he would harass me on a different number i would always respond nicely, asking what is going on. I guess being nice was bad on my part, but i havent always been nice which i deeply regret. i spent most of my time being 16 on Heroin, Escorting to make money, and being a scum bag; the guy posting about me said i lied about all of the escort stuff which makes me happy kinda? cause i’d rather have people think i was a liar… not a 16 yr old heroin addicted hooker… lol ofc thats exaggerated but i wish i didnt do it at all. im very alone right now, and cannot see past this like i normally see bad situations. i am being called slurs and hurtful things like a paranoid schizo who belongs in a cage, thats very hurtful. they are mocking me saying they can’t understand anything im saying And that im crazy, Im scared that is true because i do suffer from disorganized speech, it is my biggest insecurity. I am diagnosed with OCD (a severe anxiety disorder, along with slight Tourette’s, and Schizotypal) and PTSD, i have been on Clozapine, Zyprexa, Zoloft, Alprazolam, Clonidine, which of course never worked for me; My OCD started to escalate early 2019, i started getting more exaggerated symptoms overtime… 2023 Is my peak right now, with the disorders listed above :( i also have Severe orthorexia.. but its not a big deal to me, i see it as a blessing. I am also very insecure about my appearance, i feel like i look older than 16 and it makes me feel gross… I am male standing at 5’5 and 104lbs… i have severe eye-bags that wont go away no matter what, im very displaced… weird looking arms, face, body, etc :( i feel like ill never find love with looks like these, and i hope my personality is not what these people are saying its like. i grew up with narcissistic so i always try and stray farrrr away from any narcissistic traits… but then people think i am trying too hard, i feel like i can never win and make people happy. Also, i am a Transexual Male. Transitioned very young… before i turned double digits. anyhow i started medically transitioning at 15. I pass very well now, and have been stealth since 12. The guy i used to be friends with contacted my childhood friends who hate me due to my mother… my mother was a opioid addict, she harassed many of my old friends parents; i digress, anyhow they told him I was Trans and even Gave him my former name, he has been using it against me and i am very sad. My birthname Was Angel, i dont care if people call me that, im disappointed i didnt get to live up to it. i want to be a better person, but im so dirtied up in shame and filth. Goodbye