Yet another year of my life is coming… I can’t stand being this lonely anymore. I can’t stand this immense pain anymore. I’ve never had a girlfriend and that has been my biggest pain. I can’t take this anymore. I feel very unimportant, no matter what I do. Everything I do, life somehow finds something to make me feel like I’m worthless and like I don’t belong in this world. I know life is not fair and I’m unlucky, but even despite trying so hard & persistently?!? What more do I have to do? I’m tired of waiting. I’m tired of being positive all the time and gaining nothing from it but lies. I just want to feel loved & comforted & important. I think I’m gonna actually do it then… which is in two days. When my birthday comes every year, it’s like just an ordinary day. Is this life worth living? Not for me.