For context: I’m 17, F. I had a best friend for a couple years, which is a big deal for me (im not socially gifted.) My mental health took a turn for the worse about three months ago (the worst it’s been since my attempt in 2017 when I was hospitalized) and I ended up ghosting her. She tried to text me every day, tried to call me, and I just couldn’t pick up. Anyways, it’s been a couple of months. I miss her so much, but the shame of having ghosted her and the fear of her hating me keeps me from reaching out. It feels so impossible, and she’s the only real friend I’ve ever had. I miss her, but if I reach out and talk to her and she’s (understandably) very angry at me and cuts me off, i dont know if i could handle that. Anyone with a similar experience? How did you go about it?