This past year has been awful for me. I moved from New York to florida in my senior year and was in between houses from March to July. I spent my entire summer in Florida while all my friends were spending summer together before college in New York. I bombed my first college semester after my girlfriend cheated on me because of that I lost a 3 year scholarship paying for my college. I got an addiction to opioids and got sober from most other drugs as well as oxy. I lost a majority of my friends here at college after I relapsed and tried to kill myself so now I spend most days in my dorm debating why I should even go on. I feel as if I can’t be a functioning member of society and I shouldn’t be here, I hurt everyone in my life and have ruined myself I feel beyond repair. I simply do not know what to do any more. Also to top it off I may have cancer now. I’m frankly done.