I [26M] lost my dad [53] last august and I am really missing him. I tried so much to help him with everything he had going on and I thought I was doing a good job. I can’t help but feel blame for not being able to save my dad or help him enough. I see all the people affected by him not being here and it is very rough to see. He was my best friend and the one person in the world that helped me through everything. I feel so lost without him here and feel like I will never be able to experience joy or happiness again. I keep feeling like he would be disappointed with how I’m doing right now and it hurts to think about how close I was to potentially being able to save. I miss him so much and I would give anything to have him back.