My ex bestfriend reached out to our mutual friend to get my new phone number and she was very intoxicated. Our mutual friend told her he wasn’t comfortable giving it to her and she told him that I’m “a dumb bitch” and that “her own father needed out” and “her father committed suicide because of how shit she is”

That was two days ago And ever since then, I can’t understand why anyone would want to love me. I’ve become unbearably needy to my boyfriend. I cry over the smallest things. I can’t stop overthinking. I feel like if I was that awful why would he want to be around me.

I catch myself just in this repetitive overthinking cycle. It almost feels like it opened up those wounds that just began to heal.. and now idk if I can just move on from it.