Now that you are dead I have no obligation to honor any visitation with your family and our daughter but she is with them right now because I’m not an asshole like you.

You chose your alternative lifestyle with your whores over your wife and child and you were supposed to be happy. It was supposed to be worth throwing our life away for but after 8 years one of your bitches pushed you too far and you killed yourself. You killed yourself over a whore but didn’t choose to live for your daughter. You always chose yourself over her. Your whores over her. And now you’re dead.

Neither of your whores cared enough about you to contact anyone in your life who might have helped. And now they are with their other lovers for Christmas. Their lives are pretty much the same. Neither of them lived with you, neither had kids with you, neither planned a life with you. So they just go on as if nothing happened. But your daughter doesn’t. And I don’t because I still have to raise our daughter, now completely alone.

So Merry Christmas you fucking selfish coward. I’m stuck handling your estate for our daughter, I’m handling her conservatorship, taking her to therapy, all while having to deal with my own grief because I still loved you as a person I shared 23 years with, like the fucking idiot I am. I wish I did hate you, it would be easier. Oh, and also will I have to find a new job while I am doing all the other shit I have to do. And I have to have another heart procedure in a few months. You destroyed us (me and the kid) 7/30/2015 and again 8/31/23.

So Merry fucking Christmas.