A year without you has forced me to grow in ways that were once incomprehensible to me. A year without your wisdom, and fairness. A year without seeing you or giving you a hug.

I miss you more than I ever could imagine. Losing you has changed my entire perspective. As much as I hate to say it, losing you gave me the courage to live (not just survive) and that’s the silver lining I’m holding onto in this. You would have been so proud to see all these new experiences I had in 2023.

I thought today would have been tear filled, and sad but I am grateful it just feels hollow. Empty. Maybe I’ll be able to enjoy Christmas this year. Perhaps that’s a little selfish, but I cannot go through another 2022 holiday season again.

It brings me peace to know you’re no longer suffering, and had a chance at happiness. I pray that your act to desperately find peace was not futile and in vain. May you be in eternal peace. God is so lucky to have you.

All the anger has dissipated, and all that’s left is the normal sadness and fondness of memories I get to cherish. It’s all so bittersweet, honestly it has been this whole time. The sweetness in the thought of you smiling again is what got me through.

I love you, and I can’t wait to see you again one day. 🤍