I'm sitting on the couch in the same spot as when I heard Amber yell at me to call 911. We're coming up on a year since and I'm still emotionally destroyed. I don't think I'll ever feel that amount of pain again but I also feel like I'll never be happy again. I wish you were here to talk to me and give me your blunt logical feedback that you used to when I was emotionally compromised from my own family issues. You were smart, funny and one of the most selfless people I knew. The pain you escaped didn't end with you, it was transferred to us and part of me is resentful for that, the other part is glad you're no longer struggling. </3