can't with life anymore, I'm just simply done try to achieve happiness and fulfillment in life. To many family issues, too many insecurities, too many regrets, too many problems, never being enough for everyone, not being the perfect son, always been the piece of trash that should have been aborted, the baby that was created by accident, the baby that was born from rape, the baby that was born at five months that shouldn't had survived, the one always causing troubles, the one that is too hysterical, the one that nobody loves, the one that is is ugly and will never find love, the one that will never be missed, the one that no one will notice is gone, the one that didn't have friends, the one too ugly to find love, the one that never will be loved, the one that always will be alone, the one that everyone hates, the one that had fake friends, the one that nobody notices, the one that never deserved pity, the one that should be dead. Know that I know all that I just gotta find a way to get it over quickly and as painless but maybe I do deserve some pain after all, I know I'll Never be missed it this might be the only way to find peace and fulfillment just got to find it and then good bye