I was seeing a therapist and had been doing better a few months ago. Over the last two months though it’s snuck into my thoughts more and more.

So less than a month ago my son got these messages from his sister, my son has beat the shit out of me for accusing him of doing drugs and asking to check his backpack. Any fight we get into he throws punches and kicks me. My family blames me for all this behavior because I got remarried after divorce.

My son is 14 just so we are clear this behavior started in the last year. On July 4th he told me he wanted to strangle me and watch the life go from my eyes. Since then it’s been really hard to pull myself from the suicidal ideation.

Both my kids want me dead, my mother has physically told me that me trying to talk to her about my suicidal thoughts is attention seeking and if I really was serious I would just do it. She literally said this to my face. My husband says he doesn’t know what to do but he doesn’t want me to kill myself.

I don’t know how to stop the thoughts last night I thought about overdosing on pills, I need help but I have no insurance and I don’t know where to go or who to talk to…