Hey friends! Posting from my alt, don’t want to dox my main on this question

Im a retired stripper that had 1 amazing SD that I adored back in the day. I completely my education and now work as a software engineer. My SD helped me through the pandemic so I could complete my education. When my SD and I met (almost 10 years ago), he was unhappily married. He eventually divorced her, started therapy, started a new business, etc. I was so proud and happy for him. He met a woman, and wanted to have a real relationship with her. Our age gap was to wide for him to be comfortable taking me to work events, family gatherings, etc, so sugar would only ever be our relationship. When he told me about her, I was super exited for him. He is really great and deserves all the kindness and love in the world. I told him he will always be welcome to reach out to me, but that I’d respect his relationship and give him space. He thanked me for understanding.

We stopped seeing each other 3 years ago. He and I had an arrangement for 7 years total, and it was fulfilling for both of us. He got his cute travel partner that was funny and intelligent, I got my financial assistance and mentorship from an intelligent successful man.

Life has been so dull since he and I stopped seeing each other. I’m paying my bills, but still early career and paying off my student debt. So “fun money” is sparse, and I am not saving like I’d like.

I’d really like to find a new SD, but I know I was spoiled by my last. He hated his wife, so his business trips that he took me on made everything ok, so he was generous with me. He was also a very gentle, and thorough lover. He treated me with kindness and respect, and I think he always knew I would start a great career.

I am hesitant to start some kind of online profile on a website because I don’t want it to get leaked, I don’t want to ruin my career.

I met my last SD in the club. But I hung my heals up when I picked up my keyboard (I work in software development)

I’m also 37 now. I’m 5’4, 140lbs, curvy, 34D-28-38. Pale skin, green eyes. Conventionally attractive, w some very modest piercings to be slightly “edgy”.

I used to work in an upscale gentleman’s club w the piercing I have, just to put into perspective they are tasteful.

Am I to old? Is it impossible to find a SD with out having a website? I’m not in a position that I can really go hunting for one by hanging out in upscale bars, and even if I did have the spending money to look comfortable buying expensive drinks, I would worry that I would be mistaken for someone just wants a one night situation (no hate and all respect toward the women that do this, I just like to know and like the men I have relations with)

I’m also on my phone - just proof read my post and there are lots of autocorrected typos. Phone app is not letting my tap where the mistakes are to correct them, please disregard typos 🙃