29F SB look for like minded SBs for some support.

I don’t think I’m cut out for this. I grew up in a very small town and grew up being scared and disgusted at the thought of sex. All the boys would call me names and treat me like garbage thinking it would get my attention.

So I moved away the first chance I got. And now, married to my highschool sweetheart, who is fully on board with this by the way, I find myself with ADHD and a wild sex drive I can’t control. But, I also have a lot of emotions that aren’t always in check and they get mumbled and confused.

And now I’m starting to feel the same way again, picking myself apart in the mirror and hating myself over the enjoyment I get from the attention. I don’t even know if this is the right place to be posting this.

It really fucking sucks being a 90s baby and growing up in the age of eating disorders and Victoria secret models. I’ve never been a size 0, but I’m also not fat, I’m a size 6 and a size 8 at my biggest. But I still don’t recognize the person staring back at me this morning.

If you’ve read this far thank you. Are any SBs feeling the same as me and would be comfortable connecting? This isn’t something my friends are into so I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this.