Ok, so I'm a Bi-curious male who has had no sexual encounters, no romantic relationships and no real 'ADULT' experiences (not even drinking) I'm 25 and have recently decided to try and break out of my shell in a big way and give sex a try and hopefully get some experience in the field before going into a real relationship, the big issue is I'm gay bottom and straight top and I want to try being a bottom first so I know where I stand on everything.

the problem is I'm extremely nervous and worry about being exposed to certain people and being blackmailed somehow.

The worst part is I decided to see how things are on grindr and the local R4R and found someone that kinda matches me in some ways and I kinda want to just go for it but at the same time I worry about running into this person when I'm with family or friends and being outed somehow.

I dunno I can't tell if I'm being over cautious or no, any advice for a virgin looking to explore his options?

TLDR; nervous virgin with an opportunity to lose backdoor V-card but worried about public interaction after the fact.