I basically getting out of a dead dynamic that I was doing all the work. I worked so hard at trying to please him and trying to get noticed even a little bit I do my tasks I had still (making vids and pics for weekends) and receiving nothing in return not even appreciation or acknowledgement. I felt so invisible, undersirable,gross like the worse sub ever in the world ever and I'm someone who takes stuff extemely seriously. I got into this whole thing by accident without even knowing what can happen and it not always forever. please dont let what happened to me happen to you. I thought he was my forever Dom I felt special, treasured but he also has n had other subs I was nothing speical I clearly was replaceable. be careful and watch closely at first sigh LEAVE pls I spent a year of my life trying my hardest to please and be there for someone that gave me so little thought if even if at all I been there at so many bad n hard times but yet nothing I done even mattered I thought about him 24/7 and yet he just.. I don't know the right words but basically adondon me as a sub. Im so lost and scared it's unreal I lost my guide my light and its destroying me deeply I don't know how to process all of it currently. I feel like a puppy left side of the road. pls learn from my stupidity and save a year of your life it isn't worth losing all that time. I would have this more detailed but it's still new to me and I wanted to atleast share a bit of advice even tho I should of took this advice myself but I'm paying for it dearly.