I’ve written this post two times and deleted my draft already, I’m going to try to just keep it short. I had a really close friend for 1-2 years that became my dom slowly over time. I genuinely deeply cared for him and trusted him, as a friend, emotionally, physically, and was attracted to him on every level, which has never happened to me before. He wasn’t interested in a relationship which I thought I’d be fine with but I wasn’t prepared for how insanely gut-wrenching it would feel to SUBMIT to a person, emotionally mentally and sexually, that just didn’t care as much for me as I did for him. I don’t think he did anything wrong but I’m still angry at him. It obviously ruined our friendship and I could tell in the end that he was just so over it and annoyed/detached from the whole situation and the fact that I’d get so upset. I know people don’t get to choose who they love but it feels so unfair that he gets to be so over it while I’m still crying about it two months later. He even told me in our last conversation that he would be too busy to miss me. I remember before him and I really got into a dynamic, I said I was scared of getting a dom because I feel like as the sub I always get more attached than my dom, and he disagreed that was a thing, at the time I viewed that as a good sign but here we are. I apologize for my messy post, just really needing some solidarity right now and for someone to tell me there will be someone else out there or something, I don’t know. If anyone has experienced they want to share, please I want to listen.