Until yesterday, I have always thought that my sub properties without a dom are waisted.

I'm a male and would say that I'm switch but in recent years my sub properties have been a thing to me. Breaktrough happened when I read conspet of FLR about one year ago. It was a very clarifying moment. I just though that FLR is the way I should have always been acted.

My realationship status is now that I have a gf. She is a sub and I accept it. I'm not acting like a dom from the bottom to tell how she would have to change etc.

So after I adapted some consepts of FLR I naturally didin't push my dick in to her mouth. After half a year, I realized that I haven't had any blowjobs. And now after about one year later yesterday I realized that I haven't had even any handjobs. AND I LOVE IT!

It just makes me hornier day after day because at the same time, I eat her a lot and worship her. Also what I do like after change is that her pubic hair stays now uncutted but my pubic hair stays hairless. I just cut my own independently.

But I need some kind of deeper sub state and to receive that. I need to control how much I ejaculate. She don't want to really have control in that.

She sometimes told that maybe I can support you in your orgasm control but nothing really happens. Maybe just a cope, but in some way I have allmost started to like when shes not really acting in a way she tolds.

But I have independently concluded that its best for me to control how much I ejaculate. My mood is better overall and so is our relationship.

I wish she would be more active in controlling me but like I told, I accept and understand why she don't want to do that. She just likes to be worshipped and she likes to slap my ass in public sometimes, which I like because it makes me feel like such a good boy. We don't have a dead beadroom situation.

But what is happening here? Is here some kind of role reversal aspects? In a way I'm still more active making all kinds of things to happen, but can I satisfy my sub trait by being active while not doing it in a dom way but just let everything happen by giving space and see where it goes?