Ok.. I'm not entirely sure why I'm writing this but I do need a bit of an outlet.

I've been a collared 24/7 extreme TPE slave for about 7 years now.

However, during a humiliation scene recently, I was turned into a puppy, complete with the buttplug tail, ears, collar, etc... and I may have found what I've been missing in my life.

I don't understand why I'm feeling different about this type of submission, but I asked my master for a chew toy and he got me a chew toy gag! And I love it so much.

I feel I'm crawling into a puppy headspace nearly all the time now and I can't quite grasp why I love it so.

I'm a 43 year old cis woman and feel more at home barking and being taken on walks than I do for nearly anything else right now.

It's just so... Emotional.

I don't know why I'm getting emotional (in a VERY beautiful feeling yet extremely deeply subby way) and I can't get these puppy thoughts out of my head. It's almost to the point of anxiety but the anxiety is mostly rooted in the worry of why I am imagining a future as a dog.

I slept in my chewtoy gag, buttplug tail, and puppy collar last night.

My jaw is sore this morning but I don't want to take the gag out.

I feel at peace but don't know why I'm having such newly discovered sub frenzy when I have nearly 10 years of experience as a slave.

Has anyone else found they suddenly can't function because they have too much subfrenzy? Can anyone else relate to pet play?