I ended up having a really difficult conversation with my bf yesterday about how I felt that we weren't actually in a dynamic, and then he said he never really thought of me as his sub and only saw me as his gf, which absolutely destroyed me. To sort of make things harder I am a brat, and it seemed like I shouldn't be punished for not following rules I never wanted to follow in the first place. I love being a brat to him because I like his reactions and the attention that I get from the, but I really just want to be put in my place.

We are now starting from square one. We have plans for an in person discussion and to go over what a scene for me would look like. I know he's going to ask me what I want but I'll have no idea what to tell him. I have no idea how a scene is supposed to go. All I know is the kinks I have and what I want done to me during sex.

We have already gone over that I want to be spanked, but from our conversation apparently that isn't a scene for him? I am also interested in exploring ddlg, but I don't want to do age regression and I don't want to call him daddy. It would just be nice to be spoiled with attention and baby talked. I also think I'm okay with cnc/free use. I want to be played with and touched in public. And a weird one for me is I think I have a pregnancy kink, even thought I never ever want kids or anything that comes with being pregnant.

I would really like advice from others with experience and hopefully even examples of some scenes.

Please, and thank you so much.