For some reason, I find myself wanting to tell likeminded people about my experience because it was so amazing but totally unintended.

For context, I recently got a FWB who said he was "kinky" but was actually moderately vanilla and I hadn't had any experience with kink IRL at that point, but I had been interested for a loooong time. FWB takes us to a concert for the evening (VIP tix!) and we link up with a friend of his who's the headlining band's personal assistant who asks us if we want to go to a goth/kink club afterwards. I had no idea there was one in the area and was stoked. We managed to cajole FWB into saying yes so we all piled into his car after the concert and were on our merry way.

We get there and they're playing the best 80s and industrial hits and everyone looks amazing and Im immediately in my element and have never felt more comfortable in a crowd in my life, it was amazing. We got some drinks and the friend leads us to the "kink area" where there are people tied up being publicly spanked and or flogged. I've suddenly got two hands on my ass from friend and FWB while watching some stranger stripped to his tighty whities getting gently, publicly flogged, and it was mesmerizing and I was so relaxed and happy. I had seen footage of floggings before but just due to the extremes of shitty porn being the stereotype that everyone sees, I had always (wrongly) assumed that "savagery and injury" was the point, not this much more controlled and skilled demonstration I was watching. I became fascinated and it turns out that FWB had a beginners flog in his drawer he hadn't told me about which he later used on me. I was curious but hesitant at first because I had always told myself that "I wasnt into pain", but once we got going and he began striking me, I realized my perception of the impacts had drastically altered from pain to pure pleasure. I was hooked instantly.

Fast forward a month to just the other day: A local kink club held a kink education class with a flogging demonstration and I knew a lot going in but learned a few new things, as well as clarity on consent/frameworks and communication skills. The evening concluded with the flogging demonstration and I was SO glad that I was seated in the front far left while the demonstration was off to the right side so that I was out of the peripheral vision of the attendees because I was on another planet after a good 15 seconds of the demo starting. My thighs were involuntarily twitching, my eyes got so heavy that I could barely keep them open, my breathing changed instantly, my whole body felt electric, and with what conscious control I had left, I "pushed my perception" into the sub in the demo such that I "became her" and could feel the impacts in my mind, which were expertly synced to the music that was also playing. It was beyond words for me, my mind was just gone and I was just lost in pure bliss. I almost fell out of my chair a few times (again, grateful no one could see me) and I was devastated that the demo concluded so quickly (~3 min). I felt like I needed a cigarette after watching that and I've found myself daydreaming about the feeling/experience again and again. I must learn more, it was absolutely magical. It feels like a whole new world has been opened to me and it feels almost consuming...

I'm definitely signing up my FWB and I for the active-lessons class they offer 🥰