I've just been in a weird place emotionally. At the beginning of the year, I had two Doms, one had me collared and the other was long distance and mainly just to play with, but he also did typical Dom things like checking in on me, emotional needs etc. (I'm polyamorous)

End of March I went to see the second Dom mentioned in his home state, visit was lovely overall but I could tell something was off emotionally. After I got back home, we chatted and that conversation led us to breaking up our dynamic and reconciliation is not an option.

The other, my main Dom, we broke off our dynamic and romantic relationship about a month ago after 10.5 years of being together, 9 being a BDSM dynamic as well. We're still close friends, live together and parent together though.

I don't know, it feels so weird and lonely not having a Dom. The lack of care and emotional safety has seriously been the hardest part for me, and I'm not sure how to fully cope. I miss it. I know it's not forever and there's new dynamics ahead for me in the future, better ones even. But holy hell the present currently sucks

Anyways, I just needed to vent to someone who gets it 🖤