I feel so hurt and my tears won't stop falling. It really hurts when you've put a lot of trust in your Dom, and he just breaks it. Like I don't get it, I can't think of anything I've done to deserve this. I've done so much, often going out of my way to please him, to make him feel happy and better. Everything that I did was for his pleasure.

But now, after what I learned earlier, I don't think it'll ever be the same for me anymore. I wish there was a way to repair broken trust. I wish there was a way to be able to forget the things that have hurt me.

I don't want to give a lot of chances anymore. I did that before in previous dynamics, kept on hoping things would get better over time but it just drained the hell out of me.

This will be the last. One more time like this, i'm gonna end our dynamic.

Edit: For almost 7 months, this is only the second time he made me feel like this. It's why I can still somehow stay in our dynamic.

I was actually thankful I found him. I've never met anyone as appreciative as him. I've been so happy these past few months. Really just that he did something that hurt me and broke my trust. Very frustrating and disappointing.