The title really. Back story he was my(she/they) first Dom. Soo many issues, like we only talked about "our contract" once it wasn't even detailed. I'd ask to talk about limits and it never really happened after the first talk. I'd ask to talk about adapting aftercare (I go nonverbal sometimes). I'd ask to talk about so many fucking things. They never happened. We ended things about 7mo due to him not "realizing" and "misunderstanding" a hard limit I have and a taruama resurfacing and putting a pause on impact play. Literally made me feel like a terrible sub and immediately went to find his perfect sub. Stopped talking for a few months and then we won't on a last minute event (he invited me last minute) and started having sex again. Not as his sub. Went back to regular sex . I know I fucked up by agreeing to hangout with him.

It was different but less anxiety because he wasn't my son anymore we were friends. We communicated better and then he got a new sub (cool I was happy for him) then he went exclusive then relationship and then we couldn't talk anymore. I knew we it was coming so whatever. Bye take care type shit.

I miss having my friend and I wish he wasn't such a shit Dom to me because now calling someone else daddy make me sad inside even if I'm excited to do it. Also doesn't help that he took me to a new level in sexual growth. Too many first with him and not even in a kink way. I think I hate that the most. I genuinely can't tell if I miss him more as my friend or play partner. Emphasis on play partner because he was a horrible dom