Hi there! So it has been a year since my brain decided to stutter out of nowhere, and man I still hate it so much and I feel like the hate grows with every passing day. Everyone talks about acceptance, and I guess if you stuttered your whole life it works since you haven't experienced anything better, but how the hell can you accept losing your voice as a very outgoing extrovert who LOVES to talk, but cannot anymore? The most sucking part is that now everyone assumes that I am such a good listener and that I am shy and not wordy, of course I will look shy and look like I am listening if I cannot say a friggin word even tho I don't want to listen, I want to speak the hell outta the conversation. It's not even me now, it's a weird opposite person who replaced the real me in some cruel joke of fate. I just hate my brain for suddenly forcing my personality into something that I am even not, I wish I could hurt it back like it hurt me by fucking up so badly