Howdy everyone,

The title basically said it all. I don't know how to not get too attached to a patient especially when that patient happened to resemble one of my late family members. I broke down two days before in the break room, and today I broke down in my car again after asking the nurses on the ward I'm having clinical on how's he doing just to receive head shakes and sad eyes toward the room. I know it is coming since Tuesday and yesterday was a rollercoaster ride as I can see with my eyes how he got so much worse after a night and then today, it's like the final drop. I don't know how I can get over this since he is my first patient ever and I think it's very unprofessionalism of me to get attached to patient and their family members like that. But I'm so torn and I just don't know what to do. Please give me some advices. Any words of wisdom is greatly appreciated!