My wife and I have been married for 10 years and recently I’ve discovered I like anal play and have been experimenting on my own. I definitely like the bigger ones but have hidden that from my wife as one time she found one of my smaller dildos about 1.5 inches wide and she freaked out and was more or less insulting in a way. And I really love the big ones as my favorite is 2.5 inch wide and 12 inches long. She doesn’t understand my desire as she sees it “in a way” as more of a homosexual thing. She supports it to a degree but doesn’t want to be apart of it. Which I was fine with. However lately I’ve had a really strong desire to have her peg me as I really want someone to just go to town on me. She’s just not really comfortable with it. I just don’t know how to help become comfortable if I can at all.