I’m a 27 year old straight guy from the UK. But whenever I go to masturbate I always feel the urge/desire to use a dildo on myself. Then it makes me want someone else to be using it on me or fucking me. I don’t even get much pleasure from self anal play, I never cum, not even close. It makes me pee a lot sometimes but never cumming. I also struggle to get hard when things are in my bum. I have had some experiences with anal and it’s felt great when someone else has been doing it. I’m not sure what my question here is really but I feel like I needed to share my experience…

I am mostly submissive so I guess the thought of someone taking control of me is hot and I guess if they control my ass that’s the peak of control. But it’s so rare to find women who are into ass play. Especially the level I want. Ideally I want to be stretched out with bigger and bigger toys. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy all the normal stuff too but this is really missing from my life.

I’m not sure what I can do solo to actually be able to cum, ideally without touching my dick and also how do you find people who are into this stuff?

Not sure what else to write but I’ve probably missed loads, I will reply to any questions and update if I think of anything else