I know this sounds obvious and I think I knew it just didn't make the connection. I'm talking about anhedonia. The lack of pleasure in everything. I was on Adderall but off meth for about 10 months. I felt terrible everyday and without my Adderall I could barely do anything. Anyways I found myself in crisis so I thought it smart to hit the bowl and I IMMEDIATELY felt not high but together almost content. I gave it back and that was yesterday. I now realize everything isn't actually shitty. I am just extremely imbalanced due to the decade I used. Any suggestions on what to do with my time. I have a job but lack interest in everything. And I guess now I'll have to wait for a long time before the anhedonia goes away. But I realized YES a relapse will make you feel better if you were wondering but at the cost of everything sucking without it. Wish there was a way to combat this. It just confirmed the feelings I expect are synthetic and that's hard to accept. All the "good times" where just normal with drugs... It's so discouraging.