Relapsed on meth back in November and have been using regularly ever since. Before that I was in treatment for about a year. I didn't do too well over there either. I had a lot of trouble getting along with others and would frequently get depressed. Right now I am struggling really bad. I have a laundry list of mental health issues and using meth does not seem to be helping. I got fired last week and basically spent my entire check on meth. My dealer even threw in another fat sack since he owed me. I am not even done with the sack I got last week and I am already sick of this. There is an urgency to start looking for work and helping my mom, I need to stay awake. I am considering keeping the last 2 sacks around justto taper off or keep me functional. Anyways as I was saying earlier, my guy is going to throw me another bag..I am supposed to pick it up today. I have no money at all, I am unemployed and should be looking for a job, but all I do is get high, do chores, and run the streets. ( I am.not homeless) I want to quit. I know this drug is bad news and this will end badly. I know I can't win and be a " functional or occasional user" I don't know what I want from life but I do know that it's not this. I am really trying to avoid my family finding out and me having to go back to treatment. However, with the shit I have been up to lately, that'd be the best scenario