I've noticed my anhedonia follows a pattern that mirrors my past Adderall usage. During the first hour after waking, I feel relatively decent. I always used to wait an hour after waking up before taking the pill. However, after that brief window of normalcy, my mood and motivation plummet.

Throughout the day, I feel emotionally empty and mentally drained, like the world just doesn't have any color. It bothers me so much that I've resorted to having two small beers in the afternoon just to cope and make time pass more quickly. Around 8 PM - the beer having long worn off - something shifts, coincidentally it's the same time when my Adderall used to wear off. It's like a switch flips, and I begin feeling more like myself again. My mood improves a lot and it continues getting better with each passing hour of the night.

The difference between my daytime and nighttime mental states is literally huge. I've found myself staying awake later than I should, simply because these nighttime hours are when I feel a lot more human. I'm even considering restructuring my entire sleep schedule to minimize the challenging daytime hours, though this might not be the healthiest long-term.