The last three in the taper down (really had not much of a choice) is now gone.

It was a struggle to get down, yesterday was a big 9 hours of onsite job work. I had 6 tablets, got home and was exhausted and ate a tiny bit for dinner, watched a movie in bed with hubby but was on a high because I worked. My job, my dopamine levels are at its peak, it really is my passion.

It also is and was (still is) why I continue to take the dex. I constantly push myself to the extreme to make more and do more.

It’s stupid, I know. I hate sitting at my desk to do the other side of the work that I do. The need to do the boring stuff (how adhd of me).

December is peak period for my business. Shit, how the heck am I going to do this. I was kind to my 46 year old body today. I needed a nanna nap after the morning mum duties.

I napped for what I thought would be a 40 minute nap, I was out for two hours.

I’m still tired but need to be out for kids duties, down the hatch last 3 goes.

No tablets around till December 23…

Honesty is what you’ll get from me. Hello, its the only way I did get sooo very sober from the booze.

breath let’s go.