hey guys, i’m wondering ways to be productive without meds. im having recurring health issues and getting tests done, so while i can’t say A is causing them (im taking my prescribed dose of 30mg instant/day), im sure it’s not helping.

i’ve never known productivity before these meds. everything done at the last minute, sloppy, tardy. i don’t want to be dependent on stims the same way i wouldn’t want to depend on antidepressants to feel happy.

but after maybe 5 years on the meds, i feel almost as bad as i did before - total “paralysis.” i don’t want or desire things anymore, i do the bare minimum. my sparkle and motivation are gone, i can’t relax whatsoever. i hate feeling like a useless blob scrolling on my phone for hours, on or off the meds. i miss when i would take them and just enjoy cleaning my house.

can anyone relate or offer tips? because wtf 😔