Well like it says today makes the 1st day without my usual speed/ fetty addiction. I myself am surprised I'm alive, I just had COVID last week and was sold a bag of BS fetty so finally I realized that I'm dope sick I said Sarah (myself) ur on day 5 just keep going don't look back RUN BITCH RUN , I'm still running. That shit had a hold on me but the thing of it was honestly is everyone who does it , sells it (it being fetty) is a fucking junkie , lieing, stealing POS & I'm tired of getting fucked over so . I'm lucky I didn't "accidentally" kill myself even though doing a drug that u know there is a 75% chance u may not wake up it's a self cancel to me not an accident. I lost my brother and then 2 yrs 2 the day my best friend Randy life hasn't been easy and at times not worth living. I myself believe I deserve better and frankly I don't want to get arrested again for fucking these junkies up 4 ripping me off, had to pull my bat out last night over $150 bucks I got my $ bk . So I just wanted to tell someone , I myself am fucking proud and didn't think I would live thru the withdrawal process of fentanyl but it wasn't as bad as they say. I'm 41 and have been a everyday smoker of the crystal and on fetty for 2 years, I've been arrested a bunch and all the bitch ass pigs know my name where I'm from. If your struggling with addiction please ask 4 help so ur loved ones won't hurt like I do until my time comes. I wish all my fellow party people nothing but peace , love & the ability to move on & when u can reach out and help someone .