i get 60mg xr adderall daily, and i’m out of it in two weeks, usually less. so i’m taking twice as much as i should. barely get any euphoria anymore. my muscles constantly fucking ache and are tense to the point my kidneys hurt. I’ve had psychosis twice now because of it and even tricked my counselors/psychiatrist into thinking i had a trauma induced panic attack to keep my meds. and i still can’t seem to stop. My mind tries to trick me into believing it’s not the amphetamines fault. “you just need to eat or sleep, there’s nothing wrong”. I have ruined my body, all i get are negative effects like shortness of breath from adrenaline/physical anxiety. i take a few years break every time i realize im fucking up/get caught, and somehow i get back on adhd medication and never fail to abuse the very first prescription i get. I was prescribed at 7 years old for very real ADHD(i had a qEEG to confirm), and i just wish my parents never fucking gave me this crutch. I feel that this may end in my death if i do not make some serious changes. DO NOT GET INTO AMPHETAMINES THIS ADDICTION WILL RUIN YOUR LIFE AND YOU WONT EVEN BELIEVE YOU ARE TRULY ADDICTED UNTIL ITS TOO LATE. Save yourself like i have failed to do. I need some advice. i’m defeated.