Yesterday I was listening to Michael Franzese YouTube video and he was talking about how the person his daughter was going to marry died of a overdose from a adderall he bought from a acquaintance. He was young Maybe around the age I quit. It dawned to me as someone who consumed many street adderals over the 8 years of daily use that I am blessed to be alive.

For the first time since July 14 2022 I felt grateful to be alive! Many times since this journey I begged God to let me go as I had no desire to go on without adderall. I was in pain living with no joy but yesterday I experienced gratitude to live.

Something small but for me a big win.