I’m around 6 months sober and have a lot of anxiety around writing again. For background, I’ve been a copywriter for the past 4 years and studied writing and have a lot of anxiety around being back in that state of creating again without stimulants.

Basically since I chose my major, was right around the time when I fell in love with Adderall and the mania I’d feel when creating. I feel like it’s so triggering now trying to write without my heart pounding or feeling super “up” so to speak. I’m telling myself maybe if I just force myself to write without stimulants, I’ll realize I can do it, but I’m really struggling right now. I took a caffeine pill to help but I don’t like how it makes me feel so I’m not doing that again.

Idk if anyone can relate, but it’s just hard to switch careers when I need a high paying job to pay off debt (I’ve been unemployed for 6 months other than part time jobs) and all my experience is in the same field. Sometimes I wonder if I only chose writing because the intense hyper focus adderall gave me and it makes me question everything and what I’m even good at. :( Any advice would be appreciated. 🤍