Did anyone only feel the boost and fun of their stimulants when you would take them in the evening, overnight, or after bad sleep? Honestly, even the productivity of it hitting better at night (but ofc the type of task or activity always being a gamble in how productive it really is).

Without either a poor night’s sleep, or an ungodly amount of supplements, I hate how my meds feel at work (probably because they are also too high). But I still feel like I can’t survive without them cause I hate the monotony of my job so much. So I just become an anxious, high, awkward, sweaty work robot instead (even though im actually slower on them from feeling high). I also hate eating when I have to, because unless it’s at night, the boost becomes way too much for a public setting like work. The feeling of being extroverted or antisocial on them is so all over the place now (typically more social at night tho)

Sort of unrelated, but I hate how I only see there is an issue when I’m moderately blasted at night (maybe its the type of med I’m on “Xelstrym”, Vyvanse in patch form). Otherwise, when I’m unmedicated before or after a dose, that’s when I feel like I NEED them and can’t manage life. I will probably have to abuse them one last time just to set up my therapy and recovery, since I might not have the drive or energy to do that for a while after quitting.