After a few months of a relapse and trying to snap out of it, I’ been sober since June 27th , mentioned I was accepted into college , orientation was yesterday went amazing, I’m working legit 1 minute walk from my place as a cook at a seafood place , first time working in a kitchen , I like it but it’s a lot so early into recovery, classes start the 29th and I’ll be either working or in class 7 days a week, I plan to get a gym membership next week and I started to workout at home I’m in a good mindset and wanna keep pushing forward I’m motivated I feel happy but I have moments where I feel so overwhelmed and just drowned in not having a moment , however having a moment leaves room for negative thoughts I also been watching some self help videos and motivational crap anytime a negative thought comes I counter it with positive ones and it’s truely been working, I guess I’m posting as I had the hardest day so far today being so busy I probably served 500 customers since beginning to end of shift and it’s only the end of my 2nd week ever in a kitchen , it’s a lot to learn, it’s a lot of stress , bills are all behind from my relapse disconnection notices etc however in a few weeks I’ll have my student loan , I applied for a rent grant that helps with bills , and of course I work now idk I’m just scared of how fast I’m progressing I’m afraid to stop , I’m afraid of running out of motivation