15 months off amphetamine stimulant medications, and had to go on this until we can figure out my crippling sleep issues which are likely apnea from having a huge thyroid tumor (meet with surgeon next week)

• All the wakefulness of amphetamines with none of the mood lifting effects

• it doesn’t give you motivation: it just makes you alert enough to do things that you weren’t doing due to fatigue

• you may be awake, but you won’t be much brighter if you’re sleep deprived. It doesn’t work like amphetamines in the sense that you get a short performance boost

• it does strongly enhance focus

• it doesn’t make things more enjoyable, it actually makes a lot of things less enjoyable…. When on it I’m not social and have no desire to do anything fun. It sort of causes flatness.

• while it doesn’t create motivation or make things enjoyable, it does help me write. But I used to write a lot before so it may just be because I’m not tired…. Or maybe because everything else seems boring and I’m focused and alert I’m able to actually be productive

• One thing I hate is that although you can’t sleep when on it, it can leave you like a zombie because you’re still sleep deprived. You’re in this alert but zombie limbo. Yes, that’s why I’m on it, but it sucks.

I can’t imagine who would enjoy this drug or why on earth anyone would abuse it.

And I wouldn’t pick it up if you’re well into recovery.

However, if I were deep into amphetamine dependence and struggling to get clean, I would at least talk to my doctor about it.

Just my thoughts. Looking forward to being off this stuff.